At another level, if I were to kick up the blogging again, I think I'd become even less popular than I am now - and how much fun would that be? I tire myself with my own contradictions. I grow more and more convinced as time goes on that:
The churches we have are God's way of working in the world. Changing the church out for something "better" is worse than going forward with what we have.
The churches are falling away from the faith.
Spirituality is on the wane, just when we need it most
Contemplative prayer, centering prayer, silence before the Lord, whatever you want to call it, is a spiritual deception.
We need real teaching of solid doctrine, the blood, and holiness.
NT Wright and his "new perspective on Paul" is spot on.
I'm starting to see things more clearly than ever before in my life.
I've never been more confused.
I've called myself a former "Damentalist" before, but it's really never that far gone from my heart. (That's fundamentalism after you bleed the fun out.) The problem is I always seem to be squarely in two camps, and end up aggravating both. 20 years ago, I was an egalitarian, home churching Calvinist. Ever met one of them? No you haven't. The home churchers were unhappy about the Calvinism, and the Calvinists seem to need high liturgy. Now I'm a doctrine-heavy new perspective guy who doesn't think much of the emergent movement. That's nothing, though. I'm a doctrine-heavy guy who believes you should attend the church closest to you without regard to its doctrine.
What on Earth is wrong with me?
If anyone is itching to discuss the New Perspective on Paul (Pearlie has been running a series, on which I have not commented) or whether the church is falling away, let me know. It might tempt me. Elsewise, if I seem quieter than usual, everything's OK. I'm just staying occupied.